I have always tried my hardest to live by one religion, honesty.
Honesty is something I have held very close to me.
Sometimes I'm blunt, too blunt.
I have hurt people's feelings.
But I do what I think I should.
I say what I think people need to hear.
Things I think they deserve to hear.
What hurts more?
Finding out you were lied to later? Possibly had accepting something that was never even there?
Or hearing the truth now and accepting it and moving on?
I recently was told some news, something that is literally going to break someone.
Someone I care about very, very much.
There is one place I cross the line..
I am a third party.
I was not told this by a direct source.
Also, this is none of my business.
Here's the hard part.
I know.
I know this bit of information that is life changing and heart breaking.
She says his name and it makes my cringe knowing his next move.
And she is completely clueless. She has no idea.
It makes my heart hurt.
I always try to put myself in someone else's shoes.
But as I look down at my feet, I don't know how to feel.
"I already look like a fool. He's telling people. He's telling people who are telling other people.
But I couldn't even whisper those words to him, I want him here. And maybe everyone else is wrong. maybe he just had a moment and told the wrong person. Maybe he still wants me here."
But lets be honest..
Someone who loves you would not and will not put you in such a situation.
Telling other people and not letting you know? Not even hinting?
He's out to break your heart, he does not love you.
I just wish people could own up to their feelings, you know?
Tell me how you feel. Tell me so I know, so I can fix it.
If you keep things bottled up inside of you, you're only lying to yourself.
You're only hurting yourself and everyone else around you.
How dare you be so selfish.
How dare you hurt someone else.
Keep their hopes up.
Keep them encouraged.
It's an outrage.
If those three words become hard to say,
it's time to let go. You can't drag them on.
You know, I know.
She has no idea.
I just ask everyone, please. Be honest.
