Doneski

Ya know it really sucks living in a small town, especially this one. It's like the littlest things make the biggest difference.  I stopped smoking weed.  It's an amazing feeling and I can't imagine a reason I'd start doing it again.. but damn, in such a short amount of time, I've learned so much about myself and the people I've surrounded myself with.


Since I've stopped, one of my friends have completely stopped calling me.  Like, now I have nothing to offer?  And another has completely ditched me to smoke weed.  People who smoke weed are constantly chanting, "I don't give a fuck."  You know why you don't give a fuck? Because THC releases dopamine indirectly as you're undertaking a behavior that's "pleasurable", which thereby activates the reward pathway in your nucleus accumbens.  Yeah, so maybe you're happy temporarily, but when you're not smoking your emotions are completely irrational.  You get easily agitated, aggravated, and upset. If you want to smoke, fine.  I really don't care.  But try to get your priorities straight.  That "pleasurable" feeling may suffice for 20 - 30 minutes.  But what about after that?  What about after all your weeds gone?  Yeah.  Get mad at me for making a valid point about the cons of smoking weed.  You're just being irrational.


And being this age, if you have a boyfriend, don't plan on having friends too.  Like, yeah..  maybe I'm not going to hug and kiss you and tell you how fucking beautiful you are..  But do you really need that constantly?  Like, shit. Get some self-confidence and hop off your boyfriends dick for a minute. 


BOYFRIENDS DONT LAST FOREVER.
If yours does, good for you.  but lets be realistic.
I won't believe you until I see a ring on that finger.
Yeah, Beyonce knows whats up.


Don't get me wrong, I've done it too.  Smoked too much weed, got lost in my relationship.  But you know what happened?  Heart broken and just pissed the fuck off.  Yeah.  It's really not worth it.  Relationships are if you know how to balance it out without pissing the world off.  Weed?  Not so much.  If you're not happy sober, what makes you think tricking your body into thinking you are is gonna make any fucking difference?  


It would be greatly appreciated to just meet some people who appreciate everything.  Not just the sac of weed you wasted $20 and a quarter of a tank of gas on.  Or just your boyfriend that will more than likely break your heart in a few months.  But instead appreciate the people who were there when the weed was all smoked or who actually made you feel better when your boyfriend started making you feel like shit.  Yeah.  Or maybe even appreciate the other things that make you happy.  Family, friends, God's works, your pet fish, or even that one channel on TV that never seems to let you down.  Maybe these things don't have as big of an effect on you, but I guarantee the happiness you get from these things last a lot longer than your boytoy and that skimpy ass blunt.


Sorry to be so negative.
Sorry if I offended anyone.
But sometimes shit needs to be said.
And sometimes I need to rage.


If youre happy, so be it.  Good for you.  Keep doin the damn thing.
But I bet you can find so much more if you would just stop and look around.


And for the record, I love my friends. 
And I apologize if this made you think differently.